The Year That Was

@Work: There were times when my cubicle became my home. 70 hours a week at office. I did gain a lot of respect from my peers for indomitable spirit and can do anything attitude. did learn a lot of technical concepts, Worked (patiently) with complete ********, got a hike, lost out on promotion. A mixed bag, really. But in the end I can say I scored well but a familiar sense of disappointment looms large.

@Home: I had decided to spend more time at home with my family, but I didn’t even come close. Did enjoy a vacation with my cousins and their kids, but that ate into my holidays and the little time i spent at Home was filled with my outbursts about incompetent colleagues, and my non existent social life. I had them more worried when i was with them than away. I had failed big time.

@Social Life: My social life has been a disaster. I would spent a zillion hours staring at my laptop. Total Internet consumption for the year has been a staggering 160 GB. There was this trip for a colleagues wedding which was fun, only because I kept boozing for 16 hours out of the 20 hour trip. Haven’t gone out for a movie with friends in the last year, didn’t buy a single shoe (I have about 8 pairs now). Lost in touch with some very good friends, I was too lazy or rather acting like an ********. Never bothered to call, didn’t wish a single friend on his/her birthday. I did get a couple of new friends, who really have been a big help in maintaining some sense of normalcy at work. All the computer staring has given me a new problem “Myopia”

@Goals: My MBA Plans went up in smoke. I didn’t get a scholarship that meant i couldn’t afford the MBA @ Thunderbird. Worst part didn’t even send them the signed offer accept/reject letter. Couldn’t bring myself to sign and reject the ticket to freedom from here. I did buy the new GMAT prep book with a hope of starting afresh sometime in June, but haven’t touched it sense then.

@Entertainment: My private music collection has grown almost three times, watched about a 100 movies in the laptop, Completed two games in my Laptop. Reading habit didn’t vanish, became a member of 2 libraries. Stopped going to one when the librarian started asking me money for a book which I didn’t take. Started to build my book collection, got a new Book Shelf.

I begun this year with a lot of confidence, but as the year draws to close I know that I flattered to deceive again.

Ironically, As i finish typing I hear Metallica Sing
“What I’ve felt
What I’ve known
Never shined through in what I’ve shown
Never be
Never see
Won’t see what might have been
What I’ve felt
What I’ve known
Never shined through in what I’ve shown
Never free
Never me
So I dub thee UNFORGIVEN”

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